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"People should be able to say how they feel - how they really feel.
Not, you know, some words that some strangers put in their mouths ."
- Tom Hansen

Hi, nice to meet you.

Saturday, October 31, 2009,12:37 AM

Eighteen, The Funny Big Fan

Dear reader,

How's your day so far?

I hope it's awesome, I really do.

Well, well. I went to watch Michael Jackson: This Is It yesterday at West Mall with Jing Yi, Noah, Caleb and his friend, Isaac. It was pretty good. But, it's more for those people who like dance and music. I think Michael Jackson's backup dancers are great. Michael Jackson can do stunts, but the people who can really dance are his dancers.

Anyway, I think that the most interesting thing that happened yesterday talking to someone I don't even know. So, I was lining up to buy tickets for the show, and a boy, I think he's one year younger than me or more, he's caucasian stood in line behind me. His friend, Jack, doesn't want to watch the show, but he really wanted too, because he was a BIG fan. Here, here. I wrote it in third person:

He was insistent on watching the show. "It's Michael Jackson, Jack, MICHAEL JACKSON!! How can you not want to watch him? He's like the greatest king of pop for like forever."
"But..." Jack, his friend said, shooting glances towards the exit. Jack felt that it would be a waste of time, he didn't understand why his friend was so passionate about it.
"Jack, this is MICHAEL JACKSON! How can you not like him? He's a GENIUS. The MOST AMAZING PERSON. He's the GREATEST and the MOST TALENTED ARTIST EVER... and I don't know why she's laughing..."
"Sorry..." she said, trying to suppress her laughter. He was hilarious, with all the hand gestures and exclaimations. She couldn't help but laugh at him. He faced her. "You do not laugh when I talk like that alright! Do not laugh!"
She pursed her lips together, trying to stop laughing. It was hard.
"YOU'RE STILL SMILING!" he frowned.
"Okay, okay..." she put on a blank face, hoping the person at the counter would hurry up with his purchase of tickets. Jack decided that it was a good time to make an escape, so he turned and walked quickly towards the exit.
"JACK! Where're you going!?!" he shouted. Then, he turned to her and said, "You take care of my place alright! 'Course if you don't I'll get really angry and you won't like it."

There's more, but I really have no time to write.

So there.

Thursday, October 29, 2009,5:55 AM

Seventeen, Hard To Say Goodbye

Hello reader, nice to be talking to you again.

I experienced a near death experience today and realise how easy it was to die just like that.

So, just in case anything happened to me, or God wants me back in heaven early, I want to say:

- Sorry to anyone I've accidentally offended

- Thank you to anyone I've taken for granted

- I love you to anyone who needs it

Today I learnt:
1# The determination of an ant to survive is really admirable. I smacked one hard with my wallet, but it didn't die immediately. It struggled like crazy to get up even though his legs were crushed. Eventually, I decided to end it's suffering by ending its life.
2# There are pros of being a loner. Sometimes, having friends involve too much emotions, and sometimes it's better not to be too close because getting hurt is really easy.

Next year, I would be in a different class. That, is a really very scary thought. I want to cry. I'd never imagine I would. Crazy, right? I'm insane. Changes suck.

"Sometimes people find that it's so hard just to say goodbye.
It ain't easy the more and the more you try." - Pixie Lott, Turn It Up/The Fall

And he said, "Don't leave me."

But she had no other choice, life goes on.

Monday, October 26, 2009,7:25 AM

Sixteen, Double Darn

Dear reader,
How was your day?

I have a real nasty bruise on my hip now, but of my clumsiness. Oh, darn.

And, Amanda Sim passed her flu to me. Double darn.

Today, I learnt:
1# John Travolta can only act as a bad guy.
2# Everyone should be given a chance to proof themselves before anyone forms an option of them.

So there.

Sunday, October 25, 2009,12:47 AM

Fifteen, Landing Like A Whale

Dear reader,

How was your day?

Apparently Nicholas Lim says I when I dive, I land like a whale.

Today, I learnt:
1# Words and phrases, twisted just slightly, can have an entirely different meaning.
2# Sometimes people appear like they have everything when in fact, they have nothing at all.

So there, this is a short one.

Saturday, October 24, 2009,7:15 PM

Fourteen, The Irony

Hello reader, today I'm talking to another person alright?

I'll talk to you again in the next post.

Hello, yufei. I read your blog: http://www.empticipation.tumblr.com

I don't know whether you would read this.

But I went up to you and you call what I said a 'stupid thing'. So I think that talking to you face to face is not really a right approach.

Well, I don't think something that involves another person's feeling is a stupid thing.

And I don't think it's my problem. I think it's the whole youths' problem if one person in the youth is upset with another. And I think that it's each of our own responsibility to help the problem be resolved.

I want to know what happened and I came up to you personally. But you didn't tell me anything at all. You said that it was your own feelings and you didn't want to talk about it. I think that it's really ironic because, when Ruby and I didn't want to tell you about the things she wrote on her blog, you were very insistent and wanted us to come outright with it. Now our matter is solved. Don't you think it's only fair that Shawn knows why you're so pissed with him, so that he can change?

And are you seriously threatening him? And threatening other people with your "end up like him" and "this is just the beginning"? Are you like serious? Because I thought you would know better.

If you want, I could arrange for next friday's dinner to be cancelled and for us to talk about this. Because it's not right and we're all very confused, especially Shawn. And please don't call him a coward, it's not very nice. He had already asked you quite a few times what did he do wrong. But you refused to tell him. That's why I went up and asked you. If you're angry at me because I asked you personally, then I'm sorry. I only wanted the best for both of you.

I think by now, you would be thinking I'm acting nice. It doesn't really matter. Don't read this and get defensive. It wouldn't do anyone any good.

8:50 AM

Thirteen, You'll Didn't Wait, But I Didn't Mind

Hello, reader.
I actually have a lot to say. But I really have to go.

So, here's what I learnt.

Today, I learnt:
#1 There's such thing as true love. Only no human can ever really truly love.
#2 Some sensors are too sensitive, whereas, some people aren't at all.

Look here, Friend.

You didn't wait. But I don't mind.

Didn't I tell you that you can't wait that long?

Was I lying? No.

I'm telling you this, not to ask you to proof me wrong.

I don't want you to proof me wrong.

All I want to tell you is that, when you say some things, please think before you do.

Because if you don't, sometimes, you might hurt another.

It's really fortunate that I know you can't wait. Or else, I might get really slammed.

This adds to another thing I've learnt.

Actually, I've known it for a long time. But it doesn't hurt as a refresher.

3# When a boy says he'll wait for you, don't believe him. He's just saying it in the fit of the moment.

Don't try to proof me wrong. So there.

Friday, October 23, 2009,2:04 AM

Twelve, In Not Of

Hello, reader.

A Christian should be IN the world yet not OF the world.

How is this so?

Consider a seawater fish. Though it lives in a salty sea, it does not taste salty.

1:50 AM

Eleven, Stuck In Tires

Dear reader,

The following can only be read by people who do not see the need to understand everything.

"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

WHAT'S WRONG? I HATE FEELING THIS INSANELY-STUPID WAY."

You have been warned.

I rather be stuck in tires.

12:54 AM

Ten, I Feel A Little Horrible

Hello reader,

I have decided to learn at least two things a day.

Today I learnt:
#1 Most human beings find substitutes for things or people they want but cannot have.
#2 You can only feel bored when you want to. If you don't want to feel bored, you'll think of or find something interesting despite what it takes.

So, how is your day so far?

Mine's fine. I accidentally smiled at someone I didn't know. Oops.

I think relationships are complicated and involve too much feelings. I think many people know that too. So, how come so many are getting involved at such a young age?

Giving in is way too easy. Don't make it any easier.

I think all my posts and my blog is really boring. I'm sorry.

I don't really share juicy secrets and do the strikeout and reducing font thing.

There's nothing worth reading actually. So, shoo, shoo. Go away.

SHUT UP, AND GET BEHIND ME, SATAN.

It was a dark and cloudy afternoon, and the weather seemed to reflect her inner state of mind, vague and foreboding, teetering on the edge from a violet thunderstorm.

I'm not feeling too good now.

Thursday, October 22, 2009,7:28 AM

Nine, Does Not Matter; Take A Nap

Hello, reader. So how was your day?

I got back my results. Oh, darn.

I wrote a song. There you go:

Does Not Matter

Verse 1:
It does not matter if you do not care
She has enough of your emotional despair
Now she leaving and walking away
Without a single goodbye to say

You’ve brought her up and down
Thinking forever she’ll be around
Well, why not think again?
When she’s the only one in pain

So, now awake at the break of dawn
You’re wondering what had really gone wrong

Chorus:
It’s the silent musings from a lonely heart
The endless fighting and the hit in the gut
She hurts within, don’t you know?
Oh, I forgot that you’re without a soul

It’s the words that were left unsaid
Not the bills that were yet to be paid
You’re seeking answers within wrong faces
And searching for clues in wrong places

Verse 2:
Of course you think she will be right back
Even when she left with all her things packed
But she meant it when she said enough
She really wasn’t trying to act all tough

So, now you realise you are really all alone
Thinking all along you should have known

(Chorus :)

Bridge:
And, of course, you could say your sorrys
But she’s afraid and she really worries
That it’ll be a cycle; it’ll be hurt all over again
Cause…

(Chorus x2 :)

It does not matter
Does no matter if you don’t care
Does not matter
Because she has enough of your emotional despair

So, today I don't feel too good. Shit happens.

I guess a lot of people are really sad after receiving their results.

And some people cried because they worked really hard and yet...

So I guess this is for you.

With lots of love.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009,7:53 AM

Eight, Feeling Really Uncomfortable

Hello, reader.

I wonder if you actually read this.

But even if you don't, it's okay.

So, tomorrow, it's time to go back to school.

And it's time to collect my results.

Oh, no.

Dougie Lee Poynter

I feel crappy too.

So there, I'll see you around.

7:01 AM

Seven, Your Emotional Constipation

Hello, my dear reader, again.
I really like seven. The number seven.

Do you realise that sometimes people say, "Oh, I see." when they don't actually see anything?

So, I was watching a lot of Disney during the trip, and I happened to watch Tarzan again. And I realise how much I love it. It’s really funny. I love all the characters, especially Tantor, Terk and Professor Porter. Jane is really very beautiful.

Jane Porter: [Tarzan has saved her from the baboons] Put me down! Put me down! [the baboons approach] No, pick me up, pick me up, pick me up!

Professor Porter: Oh, Janie Jane! What an amazing discovery! A man with no language, no human behaviour...
Jane Porter: And no respect for personal boundaries.
Professor Porter: How do you mean?
Jane Porter: [gets extremely close to Professor Porter] He was this close to me, daddy, just staring at me. [Goes back to blackboard and finishes drawing of Tarzan] He was confused at first, as if he had never seen another human before. His eyes were intense... and focused, and... I’ve never seen eyes like those before.
Professor Porter: Oh. Shall I - ahem - leave you and the blackboard alone for a moment?
Jane Porter: Oh, daddy, stop it.

Tantor: That sounded like Tarzan. It sounded like - like he was in trouble.
Terk: Yeah? Why doesn’t he get his new friends to help him? I don’t care.
Tantor: Thats it! I’ve had it with you and your emotional constipation! Tarzan needs us, and were gonna help him! You got that?
[places Terk on his back]
Tantor: So pipe down, and hold on tight... weve got a boat to catch.
[Tantor charges off a cliff and into the ocean]
Tantor: I’ve never felt so alive!
Terk: Good, cause I’m gonna kill you!

I love Tarzan. It's a great Walt Disney movie.

6:16 AM

Six, Number 6

Hello, reader.

The trip was great.

Part of me wished I didn't need to come back. The other part was slightly more realistic.

I wouldn't tell you about it though. Because I know you aren't bothered to know.

I think that it's kind of weird when other people tell me about my post because I'm actually typing and talking to one person. I won't tell you who, because I don't understand why I'm actually talking to you either.

So, anyway. My daddy thinks that Mcfly is Mcdonalds' French Fry.

"It's Mcfly... it's their song."

"Huh? What? What, Mcfly? Mcdonald French Fry? French fries can sing?"

I don't really like the number six. So, since this post is number six. Let's make it a short one.

And end off... now.

Saturday, October 17, 2009,2:28 PM

Five, Do Ya Really Love Me?

Hello, to you.
Does anyone like Cadbury Hot Chocolate?
I think it's really good.

I woke up this morning and made a cup for myself.
And I forgot how good it was, until I tasted it.
It's 5.30am and I'm up talking about Hot Chocolate.
So, anyway, do you like it?
Do ya? Do ya?

Do Ya - Mcfly
Do ya do ya do ya love me
Do ya need a little time?
Do ya do ya do ya want me
Oh to hold you when you cry

Do ya do ya do ya do ya love me
Don't want to hear you say maybe
Won't you tell me do you love me?
Coz I wanna know

(Verse)

I'm making a list of the
things that I miss
Whenever we're far apart
The way that you kiss
The taste of your lips
I'm telling you from the heart
Coz baby I just wanna know

Do ya do ya do ya love me
Do ya feel it in your bones?
Do ya do ya dream about me
Oh when you're sleeping on your own

Do ya do ya do ya do ya love me
Don't want to hear you say maybe
Won't you tell me do you love me?
Coz I wanna know

(Verse)

Do ya do ya do ya love me
Do ya need a little time?
Do ya do ya do ya want me
Oh to hold you when you cry

Do ya do ya do ya do ya love me
Don't want to hear you say maybe
Won't you tell me do you love me?
Coz I wanna know Yerrr

(Verse)

Do ya do ya do ya love me
So tell me do you love me
Tell me that you love me
Coz I wanna know

So do ya do ya love me?
Don't want to hear you say maybe
Won't you tell me do you love me?
Do you really love me?
So tell me do ya do ya do
ya do ya love me
Coz I wanna know

Do ya love me?
Coz I wanna know
So do ya love me?
Coz I wanna know

Another really good song from Mcfly.

I have to change up and go to the airport now.

So, there.

1:47 AM

Four, The Fat Man and The Old Man

Hello, to you.

I wrote something. I hope you like it.

He hauled himself off the tiny stool that could barely hold his weight. Mmmm, he thought. Meals were the best part of the day. He rubbed his large tummy, satisfied with his lunch that consisted of mountains of carbohydrates and fats. The man remembered the looks people were shooting at him and his lunch tray. They were looking at him like he was an adult gorilla sitting in a food cafeteria. Sure, the mass, size and density may be the same... but, still. He shook his head. They didn't know what life truly was.
The man dragged his plump body out into the street. He let out a burp. "Ahhhh..." he sighed. Many passers-by turned to look at him in disgust. He rolled his eyes. As if they never burped before. He let out a few more burps and the plunked himself down onto a bench beside an old man. The old man sitting on the bench, seemed like he was sleeping. His eyes were closed and his face had a certain calmness to it, unlike the expressions of those rushing pass both of them, nervous and impatient. The rotund man decided to try something. He decided to wake the old man up in a very special way. He turned to him and let out a burp. The man waited to see the old man's reaction.
He opened his eyes very slowly and his nose crinkled at the smell. And then the unexpected happened. The old man turned to his left and lean forward so that he was right in the man's chubby face. He let out a long and loud burp, ending the grand performance with a sigh. And then he went back to his original position as if nothing happened, closed his eyes and went back to sleep. The fat man was stunned and speechless. That was a very interesting reaction.

1:34 AM

Three, Flying and Tiger Beer

Hello, reader.

So, I'm flying off really early tomorrow morning.

I can't wait!

There's service today and I hope everyone would turn up.

Watch this. I really like it.

Friday, October 16, 2009,7:35 PM

Two, Four Hilarious Guys From Another Continent

Hello, to you.
How was your day so far? I hope it's great.

I went to see my grandmama with my family this afternoon.
And guess who we met?
Pastor Nehemiah, Aunty Esther, Caleb and Noah!
It's so coincidental.
But, I don't really believe in coincidence. So, oh, well.

Say "hello" to some four very funny guys.

Screen captures from the most hilarious music video, Transylvania.

I think Tom Fletcher looks really lady like and sweet with his red gloved hands in the first picture, and Danny Jones looks like a demanding queen waiting for someone to feed him (or her).

You should watch it.
I like that Dougie Lee Poynter sings in this song.

Transylvania - Mcfly

[Tom verse 1]
Anne Boleyn she kept a tin,
Which all her hopes and dreams were in,
She plans to run away with him, forever (never to be seen again)
Leaves a note and starts to choke,
Can feel the lump that's in her throat,
It's raining and she leaves her coat in silence.

We're sorry but we disagree
The boy is vermin, can't you see?
We'll drown his sins and misery
And rip him out of history

[Chorus (Dougie):]
People marching to the drums,
Everybody's having fun to the sound of love,
Ugly is the world we're on
If I'm right then prove me wrong
I'm stunned (to find a place we belong)

Who is your lover,
I couldn't tell,
When hell freezes over,
That's when I'll tell,
Who is your lover,
I couldn't tell,
When will this stop.

[Verse 2 (Tom):]
Racing,
Pacing,
In the dark,
She's searching for a lonely heart,
She finds him but his heart has stopped,
She breaks down.

Sorry but your majesty,
Refusing orders from the queen
Results in a monstrosity

[Harry]
Remembers a voice and hears him sing

[Chorus (Dougie)]

When will this stop!

I think it's really funny that we have idols or we idolize people we don't even really know.
I watched a Mcfly concert and there are so many many many girls holding up signs like "MARRY ME DOUGIE" or "I WANT TO HAVE DANNY'S BABIES!".

I think celebrities have lives of their own too. I think that the people we think they are, are just make-belief personalities. What if one day you really got to know your idol well, and find out that he or she isn't really who you think they are? That wouldn't be very nice.

3:30 AM

One, Bizzaro Way of Starting

Hello, hello, my dear reader/s.
I've moved back to blogger. For no apparent reasons, really.

I know many people read the blogs of others for those words that are so small, they might as well not be there. Or those words that are written and then strikeout.
I think that it is actually very funny if you reduce your font size or change your font colour so that it can barely be seen, yet there's still a possibility of reading the words. I mean, if it's private, you shouldn't even put it up there, right. Right? What's worse is the strikeout. ~~Strikeout~~ is canceling. But, isn't there a backspace and delete button on your keyboard? I think it looks so awkward. Like, your point of putting those, phrases/sentences is messed up big time.

Do you want, or do you not want people to read those words?

I'm not trying to insult anyone. I'm just confused. Sorry, if it sounds offensive, okay?

This is a story of boy meets girl, but you should know upfront, this is not a love story.

Tom: Ok but wait–wait. What happens, if you fall in love?
[she scoffs]
Tom: What?
Summer: You don’t believe that, do you?
Tom: It’s love, it’s not Santa Claus.

Rachel Hansen: Just because she's likes the same bizzaro crap you do doesn't mean she's your soul mate.

Narrator: Most days of the year are unremarkable. They begin, and they end, with no lasting memories made in between. Most days have no impact on the course of a life.

I watched (500) Days of Summer with Natalia Kusumo.
It is really really good. I love the chemistry between the two main actors. I love the way it jumps back and forth but it's not tiring to catch up with. I love how sometimes the director made use of irony to bring out humor. I love the characters. I love the story line though it's really sad.

"It's not a love story, it's a story about love."