"People should be able to say how they feel - how they really feel.
Not, you know, some words that some strangers put in their mouths ."
- Tom Hansen
Hi, nice to meet you.
Wednesday, December 30, 2009,9:35 PM
Ninety-Nine, New Year
It's the new year!
I dedicated my first hour of this year to God!
It feels so good.
I think God works in wondrous ways.
I love you, good bye.
Ninety-Eight, Rafał Ozy Jarząbek
Rafał Ozy Jarząbek
Tuesday, December 29, 2009,7:27 AM
Ninety-Five, Off The Ends Of The Earth
I feel like disappearing from the cyber world.
Like deleting everything I have, from facebook to blog to twitter.
I think it's so cool.
Like I feel a sense of loss and thrown-of-the edge feeling when a person I know, doesn't blog or facebook or anything.
It's so cool, right?
Like, when you disappear off cyber space, you disappear off the ends of the earth.
Monday, December 28, 2009,6:04 AM
Ninety-Three, I'll Give It A Shot
Gloria likes my blog-ggg! Gloria likes my blog-ggg!
Geraldine likes my blog-ggg! Geraldine likes my blog-ggg!
Sometimes, I'm afraid.
Like, for instance now, when I know I should take a step forward to bring you in.
But, I'm afraid you'll reject me and what I'm saying, you know? I don't know if what I have are the answers you're looking for. But I'll try. I'll give it a shot.
Saturday, December 26, 2009,6:23 PM
I've decided to follow all my friends' blogs on blogger.
Because it's so much easier than actually typing in their individual addresses and waiting for their site to load.
So if you see that you have one follower. It's me okay?
So, what's up?
Have you ever wondered what it feels like to be a flamingo?
I think it'll be super awkward for me, because I'm clumsy and I can't balance properly on one leg. So when everyone's standing firmly and calmly on one leg, I'll be hopping around like a freak.
Oh, well. Thank God I'm not a flamingo.
Ninety-One, I Like My Friends
So how's it going?
Today is my "I-like-my-friends" day.
You can do it with me too!
I have chosen to do Church Youth.
I like Stephanie and her laughter.
I like Jingyi and her ability to come up with such hilarious remarks.
I like Shawn and his constant: 'Message me when you reach home ar!'
I like Caleb and his giving character.
I like Nicholas and the way he says hello.
I like Wan Teng and her pretty features.
I like Ruby and her decisive character.
I like Josh and his ability to laugh at himself.
I like Yufei and her courage to know her mistakes.
I like Inez and the way she smiles when she's shy.
I like Junhong and his act cool but not so cool manner.
I like Xinyu and her how she speaks on the phone with her mother.
Friday, December 25, 2009,7:18 PM
Eighty-Five, Crashing On Me
YUNYI likes my previous post.
My internet is crashing on me!!!
Oh, yes! By the way...
Here's a thing to consider:
Do you know why a crush is called crush? It's because they're mean to crash. So don't waste your time on things like such.
Love ya! Bye.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009,12:43 AM
Eighty-Four, Love You When You Least Deserve It
What's a best friend? What defines one? What are the requirements for a good best friend? How long does it take? How many times a week, or how many hours does it entail?
Stupid questions that have no answers.
Best friends aren't defined by how many times they talk on the phone, or how many hours they spent together. It's not defined by how many inside jokes they have or how many past memories they share. There're no rules or regulations that state that a good best friend must hang out with them every weekend, or tell each other every detail. A best friend is a matter of opinion.
It's the person who has been there for you through everything, not just through the fun things, or the little things, but even the sad ones and the embarrassing ones. It is the first person you would call when you're at your worst. It is the person who saves you when you didn't even realise you need saving. It's the person who loves you when you least deserve it.
And most importantly, it's the person who accepts you for who you are, and the person you are becoming.
Eighty-Three, When You Smile
I haven't really seen you smile before, because I haven't really seen you.
So, oh, well.
This isn't for you then.
Eighty-Two, The Best Things In Life
Eighty-One, Over Thinking
I wish all the time at 11:11, and even though my wishes don't always come true, I'll always continue to wish at 11:11.
Eighty, Ending '09
Monday, December 21, 2009,9:21 PM
Seventy-Nine, Fear of Just Letting You Go
Love is giving someone the power to hurt you, but trusting them not too.
I admire old married couples.
Those that have lived with each other for a long long time.
I admire those that can just sit across the table, staring at each other, without saying a word, because there's simply nothing left to say. I admire them for their courage to be so emotionally attached to another human being, and their commitment and trust towards each other.
Do you find them amazing?
It's like you're standing at the edge of a cliff with a thousand miles below you. Your partner calls you, telling you to jump, saying that he would catch you. But do you jump? Do you dare to trust? Do you have the courage to put your life and your emotions into another person's hands? Knowing that if he suddenly decides to let you fall, it's really going to hurt and probably kill you?
I don't know... It's really crazy.
And I can't really can't comprehend how people muster up the courage to do so.
How is it possible that you could let your emotions be ruled by one sole person? Don't you fear that he or she might just let you go?
Sunday, December 20, 2009,10:55 PM
Seventy-Eight, Never Grew Up
Do you wish sometimes we never grew up?
Life gets so complicated.
I love you, goodbye.
WHOOPIE! This is post seventy seven. How wonderful.
77, 77, 77!!!
Today is just an ordinary day where I wish I could fly.
Seventy-Six, That Backside Release
Do you know that she doesn't know that we are?
She goes on and on and on about some crazy thing that he made her this way, he made her cry, he made her fall in love with him?
Like COME ON, GIRL.
There's no such thing, as he made you whatever.
We're all responsible with our own feelings.
Don't carry on with that backside release, please.
Saturday, December 19, 2009,7:22 AM
Seventy-Five, It's A UFO
My daddy is hilarious.
I was looking out of my window. "AH! Aeroplane! Aeroplane! Look, look!"
"So? Have you never seen an aeroplane before?"
"But this one's so pretty!"
My father gets up from the bed and walks over. "Where?"
"There!!" I point to a light moving across the sky.
"That's not an aeroplane."
"Huh? Then what's that?" It was an aeroplane, I knew it was. What else could it be?
"It's a UFO."
HAHAHAHA! And you know the way he said it was like so normal. Like as if he says, I'm reading the newspaper or something like that. So matter-of-factly.
Love you, good night then.
Friday, December 18, 2009,4:33 AM
Seventy-Four, Writing To You
I like writing to you when I'm bored.
'Cause firstly, there's nothing else to do, and secondly... well, there's no secondly.
So, I've got nothing to say, really. But I'll just keep writing whatever comes to my mind. So if at any point, it starts getting a little weird and you don't understand, you should stop reading.
Yes, so today, I woke up at 8am again. It's like recently I keep waking up at 8am. I don't know why. No matter how late I sleep. I still wake up at 8am. Oh, well.
Today I entertained the thought of creating a new blog. But I decided against it, because I wanted to keep this one for as long as possible. Do you realise I have been updating this blog for quite a long time? All my past blogs have been only for a while.
Oh, yes! I'm so mad at my mum!! SHE TOOK AWAY MY LION!! How could she?! She's being so unfair. Dammit!
Today I visit my private blog again, and realise it's way dead. OH! Maybe I should post something I posted there! It's so funny. Should I? Oh, never mind. I'm just too lazy.
And, YES! There's church tomorrow. There's church every saturday, but I'm still always very excited to go to church. Sometimes more, sometimes less excited. But always excited. Talk about being an enthusiastic church member.
Love you too.
Seventy-Three, Are You Hungry?
Seventy-Two, Theories of Relativity
How are you doing today?
This book is great:
Theories of Relativity - Barabara Haworth-Attard
"I return to the book and study the picture of Einstein, the father of theories. I know who he is - a genius. You can get away with a lot if you've been labelled a genius. You can be rude and people will say,"Don't mind him, he's a genius."
Clown hair sticks out from Einstein's head. If that's what a life of thinking theories does to you, maybe I should give up my theories, or keep my hair short."
""Why use blood for transfusions?” I joked to Jenna. “Just feed coffee into my veins.” I want her to think that I’m the funniest guy alive.
She stares at me. “You say the oddest things.”
Why do I even open my mouth? I stuff my muffin into it, working on a theory that if it’s busy, it can’t say anything lame."
Wednesday, December 16, 2009,4:33 PM
Seventy-One, Love Unconditionally
How are you doing?
"Because there has to be one that's good. There always has. And your heart has the ability to love unconditionally. Like I told you, in the end, all that really matters is love."
- Charles Deveaux to Peter Petrelli, HEROES
Peter Petrelli; Milo Ventimiglia
Seventy, Can't Stop Thinking About Something
How's your day today?
Why is it that when you don't want to think about something, you can't stop thinking about it?
Tuesday, December 15, 2009,4:28 AM
Sixty-Nine, To Infinity And Beyond
Today I realised this: My phone bills are going to be just like Buzz Lightyear; To infinity and beyond.
Oh, goodness gracious.
Can anyone help me?
Sixty-Eight, It Lights The Whole Sky
How are you doing?
"No matter how mature we may try to be, we will always be a kid when we get hurt and cry." -Peter Pan
Sixty-Six, Marc Johns
Marc Johns is the greatest.
Monday, December 14, 2009,4:19 AM
Sixty-Five, I suck
Sunday, December 13, 2009,5:13 PM
Sixty-Three, Cheer You Up
Cheer you up!
I hate hurting people.
Saturday, December 12, 2009,5:55 PM
Sixty, Wii Belong Together
This is so funny! And adorable!
Fifty-Nine, Without Strings Attached
I wish we left off as friends, and not like two confused puppets with no strings attached. I dreamt of you yesterday
, I don't know why. I DIDN'T EVEN FOR ONE STUPID SECOND THINK OF YOU YESTERDAY! I miss you more and more, and it makes no difference if you're here or if you're sitting next to me. I miss who you were.
I don't know whether you know I'm talking about you. I think it's a likely chance you wouldn't even read this. So, it's really okay, I'm just writing what came to my mind this morning, when I woke up with your face in my head. And when you were smiling at me, and I was smiling back! And we were talking like how we did last time, with nothing holding us back. We weren't looking somewhere else and wondering what to say, or why it was so awkward. I miss you, my friend.
I don't know what I'm doing.
Saying things like that and making other people really confused.
Oops, I did it again.
Fifty-Eight, Meaning The Most
When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives means the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness. That is a friend who cares.
Friday, December 11, 2009,4:15 PM
Fifty-Seven, Super Duper Christmas
I've been hearing all the christmas songs yesterday at the swimming pool.
"Jesus is the reason we celebrate the season,
Jesus is the birth of our King
And christmas isn't christmas
Without the love of Jesus
He is the reason that we sing!
So, have a super duper christmas
With Jesus this year
Super duper christmas
Spreading the cheer
If you are down
Your frown would soon disappear
So have a super duper christmas
With Jesus this year!"
-Super Duper Christmas
Fifty-Six, Belated Birthday
AHH! Finally! My computer's internet works!
Yesterday I was trying like crazy, but it's just so stupid.
Okay, so yesterday was Brandon 's birthday but that was totally knocked out of my brain.
I'm so sorry I forgot, Brandon!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY THOUGH!
Sorry for making your wait the whole entire day.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009,10:26 PM
Tuesday, December 8, 2009,6:59 AM
Fifty-Four, Nothing Bothers
I like talking much ado about nothing, when something bothers me. It makes me feel happier, like nothing really matters that much because it's really all just rubbish.
So, here goes.
Today the sun is bright, but the wind was strong, so it's a really nice sunny but not hot day. Why can't we have more days like this?
It's always nice to have someone to say goodnight to you every night.
Do you realise that there can be a maximum minimum point, but there can never be a minimum maximum point?
Your silliness makes my heart smile.
It's funny how when you do something right, no one remembers. But when you do something wrong, no one forgets.
I will hide my hurting heart beneath a laughing face. And though you'll think I never cared, no one can ever take your place.
The streetlights flicker and then they fade, like every good intention I had.
Shawn: You know, he used to tell me how wonderful you were, but guys always say great things about their girlfriends until they break up. That's when the truth comes out. you know, I've waited 15 years to find out what he really thinks about you. Do you wanna know what he thinks about you now that you're broken up?
Topanga: No. Shawn, I don't wanna talk about him.
Shawn: Now that you've broken up, he still tells me how wonderful you are.
-Boy Meets World
Want to know something ridiculous?
I actually thought you cared.
Some emotions don't make a lot of noise. It’s hard to hear pride. Caring is real faint like a heart beat and pure love, why some days it's so quiet, you don't even know it's there.
At the end of the day, you could either think about what's tearing you apart, or you could decide to think about what's holding you together.
I don't like crying, much less crying in public. It makes me feel like a weakling, like I can't keep my emotions to myself. Like I have to tell the whole wide world that I'm sad. I don't like it. My problems aren't so big that I have to involve everyone, or anyone, for that matter. You may think differently. It's okay. Really. Just that, if you do cry, I really don't know how to comfort you. I'm sorry.
Nicholas' lion went for a BUTT SURGERY. Just this sentence makes my day. It's so highly amusing.
We're everything, and then we're nothing all over again.
We're not what we're not. And we are what we are.
Nothing makes sense anymore than what you're saying.
"Teenage dreams in a teenage circus,
Running around like a clown on purpose."
-Mika, We Are Golden
When you're young, did you ever spread your arms out wide and spin? It's like love inside. You're telling yourself to stop, because you might fall or bang into something. But you just keep spinning, and spinning, and spinning, to see what's to come. You either puke and get your heart broken, or feel the most amazing high.
Shut up and let me go.
How can anyone not love Ferrero Rocher?
"When you start talking,
I start walking.
Lies, lies, lies!"
No, you don't know what you're talking about.
Everything looks and feels and smells better when you have the people who matter by your side.
Don't wait up.
"Once in a lifetime,
Means there's no second chance
So I believe that you and me
Should grab it while we can."
-High School Musical, Troy Bolton
So there, with love.
Fifty-Three, For You Who May Not Want To Be Known
For you who asked me about (a + 1)4 - 1 today.
With love, smile!
Monday, December 7, 2009,10:36 PM
Fifty, Close To You
Here's a nice song from JLS
Close To You - JLS
London, Paris, Tokyo
Thinking of you wherever I go and
I close my eyes
You’re by my side
A thousand miles can’t keep us apart
Your tender words serenade my heart and
You keep me smiling
I wish that you were here with me tonight
See I’ve travelled all around the world now
And I’ve seen so many beautiful girls now
But somehow no one ever comes close to you
You know I’ve been to many different places
And I’ve seen so many pretty faces
But Baby no one ever comes close to you
Close to you
Close to you
Planes and trains through sun and rain
Another hotel another day breaks and
I’m on my way
I called to say
I wish that you were here with me tonight
Close to you
Close to you
And it feels like you are always with me
On these long nights in another lonely city
You’re right here, right now
Coz in my mind I never left at all
(I never left at all)
For LOH YUNYI especially. Thanks for yesterday.
And for Gloria, and Julia and Kusumo Natalia.
Who all would not be in the same class as me next year.
And for everyone else I love.
Okay, okay. I know. You must be rolling your eyes.
I haven't posted for a while and I'm back with more crap about bands and singers.
Love you too, bye.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009,4:43 AM
JLS are real good, I love their songs.
I think Aston Merrygold is the funniest member.
He's the youngest. Why are all the youngest members of bands the funniest?
Dougie Poynter is the youngest member of Mcfly and he's the funniest.
And so is Aston Merrygold.
Dougie Poynter wears earrings, Ashton Merrygold wears earrings, Luke Worall wears earrings.
I like guys with earrings.
Tuesday, December 1, 2009,8:01 PM
Forty-Eight, Liking Comics
I'm starting to like comics a lot.
Forty-Seven, Much Ado About Nothing
Yesterday I was sick. Really very sick.
I fainted in my mother's bathroom and now I've got a big bruise on my head.
How are you doing today?
I hope you're fine.
So there, with love.